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Is it okay to be gay? 

31 deviants said Yes. :nod:
22 deviants said :shrug: Sexuality isn't important, as long as people are happy.
3 deviants said Yes, but I do not support it fully.
3 deviants said :iconfabulousplz: (comment please)
2 deviants said No. :no:
2 deviants said No, and I wish they'd all just disappear.
1 deviant said Due to religious reasons I can not really approve of it.

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LegendarySuperman - My paranoid, super powered brother.
shehrozeameen - My brother from an other mother!
DannyMechanist - My brother from yet an other mother!
divine--apathia - My unborn child of sorrow.
Griever4Leon: - My robot butler.
Erysne: - My fierce three headed hound.
MorbidiaDrekk - My devious mother.
CatsEyeNebula - My fluffy fluffed up cat :meow:
SadistSkunk - My pet skunk, may spray when approached.
Pokey-Bunny - My mischievous bouncing bunny.

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Residence : Bruges
Marital state : Single
Languages : Dutch(Native speaker), English, French, German(with notes..)

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Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
*There is no grief like the grief that does not speak.

The odd life of PHB.

Journal Entry: Mon Feb 9, 2015, 1:42 AM
I figured I owe you all an update on my life :shrug:

So, as you may or may not know.
I got married like a year and a few months ago. After having been with my wife for 5 years and 9 months. On December 2014 we hit the 7 year mark.
And let's say November/December 2014 also marked the ending of our relationship and marriage.

One of the biggest problems was that when she turned 30, she started wanting children like never before,
While I told her I never wanted children so that now became a real problem.. and at the end of November she said she wanted a divorce and was leaving me.

About her? :She already has a new boyfriend, one who she had been seeing months prior to dumping me or talking about a divorce.
He's 2 years older than me, and he does want children. 

Since January I now live completely alone, in a big house we moved in 3 months ago.. higher rent and too much room for me alone, but I can somehow manage.
Thing is, part of me hates her, but part of me is relieved that it's over. I realized I hadn't been happy for over 4 years..

The rest of November and December hovered over me as a major depression and suicidal tendencies, which have subsided and made room for pure euphoria and happiness.
Because after a lot of self-exploration I discovered the root of all my problems, my repressed homosexuality, which I kind of knew I was, ever since I dated a guy when I was only 14.
I've actually dated him more than once, one could say he was my first lover, since I've seen him up until I turned 18 and decided to repress all my feelings and sexuality.
(I managed to hide those for 4 years already, and part of me didn't want to admit being gay.. the stigma around it, and the fact it was so 'odd' and 'alien' still back then.)

Needless to say; having now accepted that part of me, after having repressed and denied it for 10 years, I feel reborn,
and I had the strength to tell my parents and brother, whom were all understanding and supportive, and my dad even told me he already knew this 10 years ago.. when he first asked me if I was gay.
Back then I refused to admit it or talk about it and have treated him like shit ever since. Which I now regret. 

Relevant link that goes a bit more in depth about my exploration and…

This is probably the most personal and serious journal I've ever written since joining dA.:noes:


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Coffee--Pot Featured By Owner 2 days ago  New member Professional Digital Artist
You want an ED post too! Awwh C:
PuzzledHeartBox Featured By Owner 2 days ago
Maybe :iconyuiswayplz:
TixieLix Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the FF fave!
PuzzledHeartBox Featured By Owner 2 days ago
You're most welcome.
pulbern Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
PuzzledHeartBox Featured By Owner 3 days ago
Hi there! :eager:
RhynWilliams Featured By Owner 6 days ago   Traditional Artist
I hope you're well :hug:
PuzzledHeartBox Featured By Owner 6 days ago
I'm quite well, the week with my Scottish friend went by in no time,
and I've consumed more alcohol than I had in months, but it was in great spirits and fun.
RhynWilliams Featured By Owner 6 days ago   Traditional Artist
That definately sounds like a great time!, I'm glad you had fun! :la:
PuzzledHeartBox Featured By Owner 6 days ago
It was great. And we went to see all stuff in my town and then ghent. So it was a week well spent.
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