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Journal Entry: Mon Feb 9, 2015, 1:42 AM
I figured I owe you all an update on my life :shrug:


So, as you may or may not know.
I got married like a year and a few months ago. After having been with my wife for 5 years and 9 months. On December 2014 we hit the 7 year mark.
And let's say November/December 2014 also marked the ending of our relationship and marriage.

One of the biggest problems was that when she turned 30, she started wanting children like never before,
While I told her I never wanted children so that now became a real problem.. and at the end of November she said she wanted a divorce and was leaving me.

About her? :She already has a new boyfriend, one who she had been seeing months prior to dumping me or talking about a divorce.
He's 2 years older than me, and he does want children. 

Since January I now live completely alone, in a big house we moved in 3 months ago.. higher rent and too much room for me alone, but I can somehow manage.
Thing is, part of me hates her, but part of me is relieved that it's over. I realized I hadn't been happy for over 4 years..

The rest of November and December hovered over me as a major depression and suicidal tendencies, which have subsided and made room for pure euphoria and happiness.
Because after a lot of self-exploration I discovered the root of all my problems, my repressed homosexuality, which I kind of knew I was, ever since I dated a guy when I was only 14.
I've actually dated him more than once, one could say he was my first lover, since I've seen him up until I turned 18 and decided to repress all my feelings and sexuality.
(I managed to hide those for 4 years already, and part of me didn't want to admit being gay.. the stigma around it, and the fact it was so 'odd' and 'alien' still back then.)

Needless to say; having now accepted that part of me, after having repressed and denied it for 10 years, I feel reborn,
and I had the strength to tell my parents and brother, whom were all understanding and supportive, and my dad even told me he already knew this 10 years ago.. when he first asked me if I was gay.
Back then I refused to admit it or talk about it and have treated him like shit ever since. Which I now regret. 


Relevant link that goes a bit more in depth about my exploration and acceptance.:comments.deviantart.com/4/1219…

This is probably the most personal and serious journal I've ever written since joining dA.:noes:




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darkanddefiant Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2015
Psst, wanna hear the latest episode of what is currently the sitcom that is my job? o3o
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Hokay, here goes... :iconahemplz:

So, this last weekend is the first in what I like to call the "hell holidays" due to how chaotic and terrible they can be. And as figured, we are slammed all weekend and today (now yesterday). I'm scheduled at 9:30 to whenever (assuming the earlier than usual up the middle shift is to compensate the lack of help we normally have on mondays). Now, boss lady has been on our asses all weekend and as typical, can't account for why we're stressed out over her stressing us out. Today has been terrible, and I'm exhausted and worn thin from the weekend. I come in at 9:30, hoping that we can get caught back up from the weekend and get back into shape for the regular service (btw, if I'm sounding redundant, please accept my heartfelt apologies cause I am brain fried). However, we get slammed for lunch for a good 4-5 hours soooo... nothing on the prep list got done. Joooooy. Anyhoo, it appeared that the serving staff had a few extra people on and bored out their brains while we struggled in the back. Not only that, our regular baker lady who helps out with prep was also there today too. 

Did anyone come in to the back and help out? 

:iconhahahaplz:  no

So 2:30 rolls around and by this time I'm FINALLY starting to get prep done and getting dinner set up. In comes the man of the hour, Dan the mang. Oooohhhhh Dan, how I wish it was legal to castrate him with the tomato shark. Not only has he not made himself useful over the weekend, he as also annoyed the entire staff as well. Something he does quite easily, actually. Today I'm starting dinner and he comes in with "GET ON BREAK, NOW". Oh, okay then. Guess he's going to come back and brea-NOPE, my morning cook is going to break me as opposed to leaving at 3. Well, I guess that's ok then, hope they're alright with him being there later cause he can't break down his breakfast CAUSE WE'RE STILL FUCKING BUSY. Welp, the inevitable happens when I get back from break around 2:50 and jump right on dinner cause apparently setting up dinner isn't as important to the managers as yelling at the cooks not doing it on time. :iconherpplz:

3:30 is right around the time Dan decides that he needs to yell at my opening cook for being there later than he should be even though he insisted that I take my break and didn't help at all in the kitchen so that my cook COULD leave. :iconheaddeskplz: Reminding him of that fact rather pissed him off, so he ran upstairs to tattle like a 3 year old. Thankfully bosslady has some sense and told him off. However, since Dan has wilder mood swings than a period he was in a fairly good mood when he came back down (idek). 

While all of that was going on, I was in the midst of a mild panic attack cause I was still trying to set dinner up, clean the kitchen and finish the prep list. By the time the close cook came on, I was still far from being done at all. The best part was that Dan figured that I needed to finish the prep list before I could leave if it wasn't a busy dinner service. Oh, and the closer couldn't help cause Dan sent him into the dishpit to catch up on the dishes. Thanks, Dan, you're great. 
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PuzzledHeartBox Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2015
I still don't get how Dan keeps his job, he must have certain skills the other coworkers lack.
Such as, how to weasel your way into the heart of bosslady. Or weasel your way into bosslady, whichever you prefer :lmao:.

I only did a short kitchen service at a retirement home, had to feed over 300 people, and we're only 4-5 people in the kitchen, it always went smooth as hell :shrug:
It really depends on your team, and no the fact if everyone's carrying his weight instead of lazing about. Which I suspect happens at your place? People being lazy or underachieving?

I honestly, still can't fathom why you're still working there.
Last time I recall you applied for other jobs, did none of those come trough?
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