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My Battle

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The battle,
raging inside my very flesh.
To comprehend this,
I must suffer all of this.

My mind flooded with thoughts.
Contradicting feelings tearing me apart.
Mental torture, no scars on the flesh.

My world of happiness,
At war with corrupt thoughts of inflicting pain,
Simply for personal gain.

I'm hanging on to one single thought,
You, you, and you.
Suffering under the fear of losing you.

When I close my eyes,
I find a moment of rest.
But it does not last.

Sinking into melancholic feelings,
Burning up, tearing down the very walls that I created,
They used to keep me safe,
But now hold me captivated.

Fed up with just being me,
Trying to change myself,
Trying to be free of this uncertainty.

Living one day at a time,
Thinking further seems like a crime.
Dwelling around in a place called earth,
Leaving it for what it's worth.

Trying to be like the stereotype person.
It hurts me that they won't take me for me.

Being envious about so many things,
Looking at the little bird sitting in the garden.
Hating it, cause it can fly away without having to justify.

I'm stuck between a dream world and reality,
The boundary is hard to see.
Until one day, I'll die and be free.
I'll be happy if heaven would take me.
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theozzcause's avatar
'to comprehend this, i must suffer all of this'. reminds me of a shaman, they have to go thru the worst of it, to guide others thru it.

and the second part, 'my mind flooded with thoughts'. that's been me lately, my mind won't slow down.

'trying to be like the stereotype person'. too many people try to be their idea of 'normal', but there is no 'normal', so that's what ruins us, and decays our identity, our personality, our uniqueness, like snowflakes on a factory assembly line.

and 'cause it can fly away without having to justify'. wow, what a powerful statement. i don't think people realize that. and they see birds all the time, and never put the pieces together, and think, 'what have i gotten myself into, where i have to justify my dreams'.

sounds like a hell of a struggle, that maybe too many people know. perhaps some won't say, but i can sense that most people are conphuzed in some way, even about themselves. in that case, maybe the best thing to do, really is taking it 'one day at a time'.

great poem, dude. i really loved the honesty, and the raw and beautiful emotion, like the words are coming directly from it, and not the brain or lips. sometimes, the heart needs to speak more than the brain.